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07 December 2010 @ 11:55 am
So. It's been awhile since I've posted something, but I feel compelled, especially today to put something up.

This semester of college is almost over, thankfully. I'm kind of glad it's winding down, so I can get to do some things I actually want to. Like writing, which, is where I come in from the cold with my thoughts.

I miss writing. I do it for English, and other classes, but it doesn't really give me the same feelings I used to get for it when I would just let my mind flow onto the page. I loved doing it, but a stupid little speed bump kept me from doing it again, and everything I wrote turned out to be crap. I tried and tried to get back to that level, but I just couldn't. I can't let it just flow like I did. I asked writer friends of mine, and hell, even writers that I looked up to for guidance, and I couldn't get exactly what I needed to let it come out again. I write great stuff when I am upset and depressed, and it turns out really good, because I'm really focused, and my mixed emotions at the time let it just really flow from me. It's becoming so hard on me to try to get something out, that I don't think that it's worth it to even try anymore. I have so many ideas I want to do, but none of them want to work out how they did back then. I have to act out stories as scenes in my head, and I can't do it anymore, and it upsets me, maybe too much so, but it meant a lot to me to get my ideas out on paper, and I feel like I don't have a creative outlet anymore. My guitar skill has gone way down, my skill with computers has gotten rusty, and I'm just kind of in a static on my writing. 

Anyway, I've got some English to do, so I'm gonna get on it.

Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
Current Music: The Jayhawks-"Blue"
06 October 2010 @ 09:51 pm
Hello all!

How have you all been? I’ve been doing well. My classes are going alright, I have been sleeping a lot better than I was last time around, and I’m feeling a lot better about my life, and it’s direction as a whole.

I think I am going to become an English major/Teacher. I love being around kids, and I would love to be able to enrich the lives of the future of our world. It makes me happy being around kids, and I feel like I would have a positive effect on them. I think what I’d want to teach is creative writing.

On another note, an enemy and I buried the hatchet. It’s kinda funny how it worked out in the end, but I’m glad I can finally wash my hands of the matter.

I’m falling in love with the weather recently. It’s rainy and kinda chilly, just the right weather for fall. Taking the drive to school each day is a treat, because on the route I take, I get to see all the trees and leaves turning colours and it’s just wonderful, I really need to start snapping some pictures.
(Plus, I finally get to start wearing scarves again! I love scarves. :3)

So, that’s been me recently. I hope you all have been doing well. :D

Later, aligator.
Current Mood: contentcontent
18 September 2010 @ 08:00 pm
Hey there my people! How is everyone this week? I’m doing quite well this week, minus today. Today sucked for one reason. Lack of sleep. I tried to sleep as much as I could last night, because I knew I had to get up early and work for the yardsale today, moving furniture and whatnot. I was so tired, (and still am) but I’m doing a lot better now that I’ve gotten the chance to sit down. I’m pretty much caught up on my schoolwork, and I’m keeping up with my classes, and so far, I’m liking college a lot. It’s not the hectic rush that I thought it’d be, but ah well. I feel like I am really finding myself recently, especially with finding my place at school, and all that. I’m a lot happier recently than I had been, mainly because I’m just not worrying about the things that bothered me before, I’ve got time to figure them out, and not let them get to me like they had been.

In other news, it’s almost Autumn! I’m so excited, I can’t wait for it to get cool, be hoodie and black hazelnut coffee weather. I will be so happy when it’s finally here. In more news, I’m getting back into taking pictures, and such, so I expect some of them will be added to my FA page in the coming weeks. Also really excited for October to come, another RoaVaFurs meet, and then it’s my birthday right after! Yay! On the other side of the spectrum, I’m trying to find a job. I’ve sent out 29 (!) applications to places, and I haven’t heard anything yet, but I am keeping my fingers crossed for Barnes & Noble, and Petco/Petsmart. I’d love to work at any of those places, and I hope I get the job. I feel like my life is finally turning around and starting to get better from the crap it had been before, but ah well. I’ve been looking at some things on Rabbit Valley and Furplanet, getting a little list ready for my birthday when I get a little money in. (Here’s looking to you rifka and fuzzwolf. :P) Anywho, I think that’s just about it for me.

Your resident fox, signing off.

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: Californication-Red Hot Chili Peppers-Californication
13 September 2010 @ 01:28 pm
Hello hello all. How is everyone this fine week? I’m doing well. A good start to a good week, I hope. The RoaVaFurs meet I went to on Saturday was awesome, I had a great time, and I met a lot of cool people that are talking to me now about the next meetup, and what they think we are gonna do. I had a wonderful day, and I can’t wait for the next one. I’m super excited. Anywho, other than that, just been dealing with school, schoolwork, and trying to find a job. (Got an interview today, here’s hoping.) And just being generally lazy as per the norm. Whelp, I’m off to go scavenge some food, and work on school stuff.

10 September 2010 @ 10:52 pm
I feel a lot better than I did the other day. :D Thanks for the comments and stuff, I appreciate it. I usually don’t get like that, but I have just had a really crappy week. Anyway, I have a furmeet tomorrow, going with a good friend of mine, and I’m thinking it’s going to be a good time. I’m not gonna let this week’s worries get me down this weekend, I’m gonna have a good time tomorrow and the rest of the weekend, and maybe next week will be better. Anyway, I’m gonna hop off and head to bed. Night all~
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
08 September 2010 @ 09:28 pm
Ugh. Not a great couple of days I have been having. I have been tired, upset over a number of things, and busy. School has been going alright, nothing I can’t handle, but it’s just busy, and the classes are an adjustment. I’ve been so stressed over doing well in school that it has driven me crazy. I messed up my car in a couple places, (Paint spots, and a turn-signal, lost a hubcap...) and it’s put a toll on me and the parents as well. And, to put the icing on the cake, I get pulled over on my street today..It just keeps getting better and better. I just feel so drained, and I have nobody to talk to about it, because I don’t want to be a downer and all that jazz, and I’m trying to find a job ontop of it all, and with no car, hell, that’s just a fucking joke... Oh well. I need to respect my parents, and what they are trying to make me learn by doing so. I don’t know how long it will be before I am mobile again..I’m just really upset, beyond the point of crying. I’ve cried too much in the past couple of days, and I have a lot on my mind. I feel like that I never do anything right in my life, and everything I do is either a mistake, or is going to turn out to be a mistake. I want to write, but I can’t change my major, because I know that if I want money, it’s in computers, and not English, and it upsets me, because I feel like if I change my major, everybody will think I’m a dissapointment, and that I’m just a loser, because I would be doing something that I want to do..Yeah, I love computers, and I love working with them, it’s just that I’m not so sure it’s what I want to do anymore, I don’t know I’m not thinking too clearly at this point anyway.

TL;DR Emotions getting the better of me, baaawww, get over it.
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
Current Music: Black Hole Sun-Soundgarden-Superunknown
20 February 2010 @ 01:54 am

Hey guys!
I’m posting from Baltimore, Maryland in a Mariott hotel, from shitty Wi-Fi I’m picking up with my cantenna from across the harbor! :D I love that I made this cantenna, it’s a wonderful little tool to put into my laptop bag when the hotel wants us to pay for Wi-Fi. :P

Anyway, I’ve been about the same, been thinking about a lot of things, trying to read more, going to get a new D&D campaign started with me and Danny and Chris at my house sometime hopefully next weekend. :D I’m really wanting to play a cleric for some odd reason. Maybe a dragonborn. (Here’s looking at you, Keb. :3)

I didn’t get to sleep in the car, and my grandmother was generous enough to get my family and I adjoining rooms, so that mom and my dad would have a room to themselves, and that my brothers and I would have a room. It’s nice, because of the space, but I’m still stuck with the brothers, and they won’t stop being jackasses long enough to let them get to sleep. D:< (Insert rage here)

I’m too excited to let them bother me though, I love being in a big city, and actually having things to do like go downtown, check out different clubs and stuff, it should be fun! (I’m really excited, because I can go into the clubs, being that I’m 18 :D)

Whelp, there’s my LJ for the week. Later, my lovely little taters. <3


21 January 2010 @ 10:27 pm

As the title says, that’s what I’ve been doing recently. I used a loader for my activation, but I can honestly say it’s been an experience.

I think I am starting to like 7, mainly because it took all the crap that was wrong with Vista and made it better and more XP like. I can honestly say that this OS has completely replaced my OS X install, which I loved, this is really that awesome. It’s also not too harsh on my (NEW!) battery that actually lasts two hours instead of seven minutes. (Even if that would have been an unfortunate pun. :P )

So, uh, life stuff.. Finally done with exams, ended on a good note, got an 88% on my government exam, not too shabby. I’m really only worried about Algebra II, ugh, math, the bane of my existence. :P My friends have been pretty much the same. Small happenings here and there, but pretty much the norm. Get up, internet stuff, go to school, get through the day, internet stuff, go run some days (when it’s warm enough), internet stuff, dinner, chores, internet stuff, bed.

I graduate in five months. I’m so excited. I’m also talking to the guy that does the sound work for the graduation walks, to see if I can get Andrew W.K.’s “Party Hard” played when I walk. I considered the rickroll, but it’s becoming so cliché nowadays. I dunno. I’m pretty excited to be going to college, (Blueridge for two years, then JMU for the rest of my degree), and then finally being on my own. (PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY, I NEED AN APARTMENT TO MYSELF AWAY FROM MY PARENTS! D:) Not to say that I don’t LOOOOVE my parents, I just want to do some stuff on my own. :3 I just think it’d be fun.

My current musical taste has been really weirdly transitioning recently. It’s been going from things like Journey and other classic rock to Bonkers and happy hardcore to this interesting kind of hip-hop that I’ve discovered, (Mostly Japanese). It’s got a jazzy sound to it, and lyrics that actually mean something and aren’t about being an O.G. or becoming a member of the slappahoe tribe. My main favorite is “Luv(Sic) Part Two (Featuring Shing 02)” by Nujabes from “Hyde Out Productions First Collection” I’ll link you to it on YouTube, it’s an amazing song, and I’m in love with the lyrics.

C’est la vie, as they say L.O.V.E, Eloquently, see every dream has a part two.

The rhymes will heal, because I believe in music, in times of need I won’t be leaving you sick, the beat plus the melody’s the recipe, all good souls lost may they rest in peace!



Anyways, I need to clean and vacuum, but I really wanted to update my LJ, and prove that I’m not treating my updates like VGCats.




Later, my taters. :3


19 November 2009 @ 08:54 pm
I definitely am tired of school, and I'm so happy that it's my last year of mandatory schooling. Physics just plain sucks. I dislike it a lot, but I need another science to pass, and finally leave the dump that is Turner Ashby High School.

I haven't been to a show in a really long time, and I would love to go to one, but there haven't been any bands playing at the Eagle's or the VFW recently that I could really get into. I miss going to shows with people I know because it was fun, cheap and we all had a good time.

My migraines seem to have gotten worse, and it's showing. I'm almost in constant pain one to three days every week, and when I talk to the doctor, they tell me the same things that they always have been. It's just getting ridiculous..I mean how many Excedrine Migraines am I supposed to take? Half the damned bottle? I have to take four now just to be able to sleep on days that I have the migraines, and even then, I can't sleep, due to the caffeine in the medicine! They don't give me anything that works, most of it just makes me tired and, or, extremely depressed. I just wish I had some kind of relief.

Other than that, I'm doing well in my other classes, and my CCNA test has been scheduled, so I should be good on that, I've been going to Barnes & Nobile and studying the various books on Net+ and CCNA like mad, along with some *Ahem* 'redistributed' materials I acquired online. :3

Which brings me to another thing. I actually like having my iPod Touch. It's rather handy. I have a full-on Terminal emulator, SSH client, Email, Web browsing, and just about any iPhone App that I want in my pocket, and the touch screen is really responsive. I like having it as my PDA, because I can do what I need whenever I need to, and I don't have to worry about having this or that, ect. I thought I was going to hate it, as I did having other i-devices, but this one isn't so bad. (Minus syncing with ShiTunes, but Linux syncing is on the way.)

I really wish I could start writing more. I mean I write out ideas in a Moleskine notebook, and sometimes on my iPod Touch when I have them, but I haven't really 'written' anything in a long while. I feel like if I try to force it out of my head, it just comes out like operatic crap on the page, and I end up hating/trashing/never doing it again.

I don't know, I'm going to go do some Algebra II. D:<

(Still hate math...)

Current Mood: restlessrestless
Current Music: Headhunters-The Power of The Mind
09 November 2009 @ 04:44 pm
So, Just got back from hitting Walmart with a friend, he had to pick up something and decided to take me with him, that was fun. Got Bugles and Mountain Dew out of it, and I like going places with him, so yeah.

Getting my car fixed soon, all that's left is to put the inner door panel on, and glue it down. (Lol, ghetto.) And I'll be back driving myself again in no time, I'm quite excited for that.

It's been really hot/cold recently, and I don't know why. Just was 75 yesterday and now it's 40-something. Kinda ridiculous.

Ah well.

Later, Taters. :3

Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Def Leppard-Foolin'